Another one brought on by the memories shared with my ex-boyfriend, mikey. It's lowkey embarrassing how he stays an inspiration: we dated for like half a year in 2021, he put me into a really complicated situation with an old man that fucked up a lot of my life and dipped, and nowadays all he really does is tell me how much he doesn't think about me.

But at the same time, I think it is so special and uniquely human that I could be impacted so deeply by someone who I ultimately knew for just a few months. It's like, every time we hung out is imprinted into my memory like a damn movie. I think back to specific moments and they are like individual iconic scenes that build into a narrative that I could watch in my head over and over again. To this day, I think about the dude and stuff like this remix comes out! So I honestly choose not to be embarrassed about it all: Beyond the messiness, I know he's a good guy who went through similar shit to me and we've both been finding our ways in our own ways. But I do think... imagine how magical that inspiration and creativity would be if that connection was healed!

Anyways... I love when I'm able to make something beautiful out of the memories, even in 2025. It's like proof that his whole "i don't think of you" thing is wackiness on his part.