Sorry, but for now Mother Kart 8 is unavailable through lush.wav. It will return when my heart feels like it did during the period in which the album was created: Mother Kart 8 was a lot of things, but ultimately it was a celebration of new love. Right now, that new love has me feeling like I got hit by a blue shell right before the finish line. That’s nothing to celebrate.

I’ve made music for a long time, but only very recently came to understand how different making it feels when the love, emotion, and intent that I put into lush.wav is being put into me at the same time. I felt it for two weeks and Mother Kart 8 came out! Two boys told me they like the scavenger hunts at Universal, so I made Mother Kart 8 into a scavenger hunt for them: Was so busy working on this project I didn’t notice them detach from whatever energy they had been giving me. But now my project’s done and that energy I got from those two boys, it’s gone!!! So with it, Mother Kart 8 must go too. Allowing the world into a snapshot of a love story with a happy ending for everyone BUT me on my website is an unreasonable expectation!

I’ll still have the mixes up on YouTube, so if you’re really interested you can find the playlist here. But this site is a product of my love and I only want what makes me feel special to represent me. I can’t leave a graveyard of what could’ve been just sitting here to remind me of my grief every time I come to my little lush.wav world, which I apologize for. I didn’t ask for such a sensitive heart, but I must honor it when it feels this way. You don’t get the magic without the dramatics!

And to the Universe and all Gods that watch over me: I cannot pour my love out to create something beautiful if nothing is pouring into me anymore. I’ve done that for 5 years now and you’ve shown me the alternative now: Have I not proven to you that I can do it alone? Can’t you see what two weeks of feeling special made me create? I beg you to send me a muse (or two) that won’t see it as a burden! Let how open my heart was this last month and the heartbreak I’m experiencing for it be my offering.

And Ms. Venus, my grief lays with you: There’s a lot I can say but I’ll leave it to this. LJC, Lord Jesus Christ🤦‍♂️